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I can't get to zzzzz.. so decided to make an entry in here. Just need an outlet i guess. In fact i'm feeling pretty sad and disappointed now. Maybe thats why i had things up my mind. And i'm not that good with thinking and sleeping at the same time. Somehow the zzz monsters dun like me thinking too much when they visit me. @_@

Its been some time since i last had such feelings of disappointment and sadness to say. Is just an bulit-up thing i guess, and just wanna pen this down somewhere. Basically i'm recently "wanted", and currently my gf is not in town... and i've not seen her for a week. Love can be a strange thing.. driving both ways.. i was happy.. then now i'm sad and disappointed. First and foremost is just today that i felt this way. Hopefully will not continue on tmr. I became rather sad when i din manage to contact my gf for the entire afternoon till almost night time.. and when i finally manage to get her... i so wanted to see her on VC, even for a sec. but nope. T_T have to wait till tmr. Cos shes tired and getting late. Logically i can understand perfectly. However, i dun think i'm that logical and rationale.. just being emotional NOW.. which explains why i feel sad and disappointed. Consolation is that i get to VC her in the morning laterz.. i hope...

The only thing that made me felt better was her photos and letters. Lucky! I felt much much better after reading her letters and broswing the pics. Its amazing that two months before i was still very much unaffected unemotional guy.. but two months later after her "popping" into my life i had such feelings. This made me realise one thing. I'll cherish.... There are some more other things that are just beyond my limited vocab.. but i'm sure you know what i'm trying to say here.

Its really amazing for me to be in such situation in fact. The stability and emotional committment made my relationship with her seem so "long". On a personal note.. is hard enough to get me into a relationship and not to mention even harder for me to reach such a level of committment. Hmmm... anyway.. shall just stop my whining and crapping here.

Nitez everyone.. i shall just find my zzz monsters to play with. Meanwhile counting down to sunday.... the day that i can see her again.=)

As usual... i'm late in updating my blog.. heehee.. =P But is better late than never rite ?

Anyway.. the wed flight that i was talking about previously after my MC. It was to Japan. Its one of most eye-opening flights for me. As i realised there are so many things that i still need to learn! Nevertheless, the skipper was very nice. I was really lucky to have gotten him. In fact i felt very bad. Bad as in i did not live up to his expectation of me. I've told myself that i'll do better!

My next flight out will be tmr to NZ. Have tons of materials to prepare.. hopefully i can digest them inside my brain.. hee

Today will need to accompany Wen cos when i leave for NZ tmr, i will not be able to accompany her for the next 10 over days... =( cos when i come back, she'll be in japan for holiday with her family, and when she come back from her holiday, i've another flight to japan... the timing is just so bad.... going to miss her... T_T

okay.. better stop before i start my nonsense about the emptiness =P cheers!

Or maybe someone finally wants me.. haha =P really nice song. =) Guess i'm just been sentimental heehee
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I finally found someone
That knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one
That makes me feel complete
It started over coffe
We strated out as friends
It's funny how from simple things
The best things begin

This time is different
And it's all because of you
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it though
My favouite line was
"Can I call you sometime"
It's all you had to say
To take my breath away

This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

Did I keep you waiting? I didn't mind
I apologise, baby that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine

You know I love your hair
Are you sure it looks right?
I love what you wear
Isn't it too tight?
You're exceptional
I can't wait for the rest of my life

This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
And whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone