I can't get to zzzzz.. so decided to make an entry in here. Just need an outlet i guess. In fact i'm feeling pretty sad and disappointed now. Maybe thats why i had things up my mind. And i'm not that good with thinking and sleeping at the same time. Somehow the zzz monsters dun like me thinking too much when they visit me. @_@
Its been some time since i last had such feelings of disappointment and sadness to say. Is just an bulit-up thing i guess, and just wanna pen this down somewhere. Basically i'm recently "wanted", and currently my gf is not in town... and i've not seen her for a week. Love can be a strange thing.. driving both ways.. i was happy.. then now i'm sad and disappointed. First and foremost is just today that i felt this way. Hopefully will not continue on tmr. I became rather sad when i din manage to contact my gf for the entire afternoon till almost night time.. and when i finally manage to get her... i so wanted to see her on VC, even for a sec. but nope. T_T have to wait till tmr. Cos shes tired and getting late. Logically i can understand perfectly. However, i dun think i'm that logical and rationale.. just being emotional NOW.. which explains why i feel sad and disappointed. Consolation is that i get to VC her in the morning laterz.. i hope...
The only thing that made me felt better was her photos and letters. Lucky! I felt much much better after reading her letters and broswing the pics. Its amazing that two months before i was still very much unaffected unemotional guy.. but two months later after her "popping" into my life i had such feelings. This made me realise one thing. I'll cherish.... There are some more other things that are just beyond my limited vocab.. but i'm sure you know what i'm trying to say here.
Its really amazing for me to be in such situation in fact. The stability and emotional committment made my relationship with her seem so "long". On a personal note.. is hard enough to get me into a relationship and not to mention even harder for me to reach such a level of committment. Hmmm... anyway.. shall just stop my whining and crapping here.
Nitez everyone.. i shall just find my zzz monsters to play with. Meanwhile counting down to sunday.... the day that i can see her again.=)
